Baby Talk

"I want a baby." I blurted after some FB surfing, and stumbling across a very pregnant picture of my college roomie. She looked beautiful; belly exposed and resting over a long flowing white skirt.

Megan sat across from me, eyes glued to a line in the the newspaper. She was silent. Maybe she was enthralled by the story and didn't hear me. "Babe?" Again, nothing. But, I noticed a clench in her jaw; it's this thing she does when she is uncomfortable and wants to fly out of the room.
"Why are you ignoring me?" With that, I move to where she sat, pushed the paper from her hand, and forced her to hug me.
"I'm not ignoring you. I know you want a baby." She finally responded, a hint of a smile coming across her face.
"When can I have one?" I plead in the cutest voice I could muster.
"After the wedding."

Well, what did that mean? After the wedding could be a month or two later. It could mean the following year...or years! "Right after the wedding?" I asked. She didn't answer; she couldn't, because every muscle in her face was paralyzed by fear. I decided I needed to go into another room and write.

Earlier this morning, still in bed, we started talking about the house we are buying. I shared my vision for transforming the second bedroom into a Carrie Bradshaw closet, and how I imagined the office/writing room would be painted in a saturated shade of grey (very Emily Dickinson). Oh, and to be practical, we would need a small day bed in the office in case we had overnight guest. Megan broke in by saying that there is a whole other bedroom for guest.
"That's the Baby's room." I almost followed that with, "Duh!"
"But there's no baby, yet. You can't make it a baby room before there's even a baby."

I was puzzled. Why not?!? Here's the timeline, as I see it-- Wedding in August 2012, spend a few months adjusting to married life, then plan for a pregnancy in January 2013. One of the fabulous things about being in a same-sex relationship is that you can actually plan when and how you will get knocked-up. So, why can't I plan for the perfect room from OUR little bundle of love?

(By the way, Megan's perception of this exchange differs from mine.)